I see a person like a society.
They are built up by many different and competing drives.
Within both society and person these drives are all gunning for satisfaction of their needs using the limited resources that earth and our bodies possesses. In a society you have forces like the economy, the arts, the church, the leaders, and the pensioners, all seeking financial attention for their enterprises. Within a person you have urges for food, sex, happiness, social status, dominance, and laziness, all seeking the focused attention of the mind.
It is a chaos.
When you focus on satisfying one drive, another one rises up to complain about its lack, and you are dragged around by these drives trying to be as fair as possible to them all. You seek to give all the drives the lowest common denominator necessary to halt their complaining. People and societies with weak constitutions strive for this lowest common denominator…
They lack the conviction to aspire to something more than simply keeping their nagging needs at bay. Instead of a common goal, they have settled for a common denominator. Instead of the highest potential they’re pushing for the lowest success. There are unified under a banner called Decadence.
The strong constitution imposes order upon this symphony of chaotic drives through the most manly of weapons: willpower. In the weak these drives are forces which dominate their choices, forces which they call destiny. Other people take advantage of the weak by manipulating these untamed drives, and the weak obey them because they prefer to be ruled.
The weak blame their masters for enslaving them and complain society is oppressing them, but the masters are not oppressing the weak, they are merely doing what the weak do not have the courage to do… They are taking control.
Master yourself and you will earn the freedom that you are desperately complaining you deserve.
You see… You are sick
You are sick with the most Western of sicknesses, a hereditary disease which has been passed down to you from your forefathers. It is a parasite within you and it is eating at your mind. It has turned you into a slave, and it has convinced you that your slavery is a virtue. This parasite is an idea.
The idea that it is noble to be weak.
But there is a remedy for this affliction.
You see, those whining drives within you, those feelings which you strive to balance. They are the source of your power. You just have not learned to master them. By mastering your desires, you take the first step towards mastering yourself. You take the first step towards empowerment.
From Reaction to Action
I’ve often felt that my culture is trying to force me to live a lifestyle that is sub standard. Of course when I voice this opinion people immediately list the great victories of science and technology, and then tell me that the lifestyle I have is the greatest lifestyle in history. I’ve begun to challenge this assumption using a question:
What do I need to live well?
What are my values?
Initially to find my answer I read widely in sociology and philosophy. I began to devalue society as a monster which is feverishly destroying the world so as to give birth to a race of slaves, and in response I began to value things like equality for all and the abolition of money. I was an idealist.
Only after holding these opinions for a while I began to realize that they are the rhetoric of utopias, and that the gut churning truth is that despite their elegance, they lack effectiveness.
I changed my approach. I stopped looking at the problems in societies constitution and started analyzing the problems within my own constitution, and I found nothing.
The reason I condemned society with such fury is that it was all I had to condemn. I had taken its flaws and appropriated their solutions as my own values. I was no revolutionary, merely a reactionary. I was against everything, and for nothing. So instead of discovering my inner values, I realized I had none, I realized that I had to create them.
So I started I project.
Creating My Own Values
I initially looked at my feelings that contribute no value to my life. Feelings that make me absent, weak, and inactive. The feelings that keep my passive and not participating in the present moment.
I imagined anything that combats these feelings as valuable.
To combat laziness I activated motivation, or to combat scarcity I activated generosity. As I began to list these activated values I began to see that they all implied a similar theme: presence.
Presence revealed to me something incredible, it revealed to me how easy it is to control your inner drives, but not by suppressing them, but by channeling them into an engaging activity. I found that when I was binge reading on the internet there was a drive in me trying to get satisfied, and my method for taming this was to out wit the drive.
When this force within me pushed my finger energetically to click on facebook I would have to become present of what I was doing and then outwit myself into expressing this energy into something greater, like writing an article or short story.
This is the nature of true will power. Not to deny our drives, but to enhance them. To beat the weakness out of my mind, because it was at this moment that I truly realized the fallacy of my perception. I had assumed that my instincts were stupid and that my mind was smart.
What I saw was that the greatest intelligence was contained within my instincts, and it was simply my minds inability to manage these powers successfully that led to my weakness. My feelings of dis-empowerment. This function in my mind that managed my instincts is what I refer to when I say willpower. This was my true source of strength.
Willpower was my most valuable asset, because it ruled my instincts, but it led me to asking a question:
What are instincts?
The Voices of Life.
Life is an energy that causes movement and change, and this energy is inherently creative. Within all living things this energy is present as a motivating force which pushes them towards activities which we call living.
This motivating force was called the Libido by a famous psychologist named Sigmund Freud, and it is the term I am going to use. This Libido is the motivator which demands that you live, and this motivating force speaks to your mind through your instincts.
Your instincts are the voices of Life.
Although this Libido’s vocabulary is quite… vulgar.
Have sex with her.
Eat that food.
Us humans, since we have begun to group together into societies, have had to learn not to obey our Libido’s vulgarity. We have learned to get the things our Libido wants in more acceptable ways. Instead of hunting down food we hunt down money. Instead of taking a woman back to a hut we wine and dine her. Instead of punching people we sue them.
We have been doing this so long that we have forgotten that we do it.
We think now that we are noble and that our Libidos are the demands of a lower self which we are far too sophisticated to obey. We have developed a habit of not listening to our Libidos, and we have begun to repress our Libidos thinking that repression is a form of control.
We have repressed our inner power because it is not socially acceptable to express it.
Now our Libidos are the things that marketers use to unconsciously manipulate us into buying shoddy products and lifestyles. There are other people controlling us by speaking the language of our Libidos.
She will have sex with you if you buy this.
Look how delicious this burger is.
Make money fast, get power.
We have allowed someone else to take control of the puppet strings dangling out of our souls, and they control our actions and our thoughts by ingeniously triggering advertisements jam packed with symbols and sounds designed to bypass our reason and speak to our Libidos.
This is not happening because these controllers are evil, this is happening because we are weak.
We need to stop appealing to them to save us and conquer our inner weakness. We need to pull our Libidos back under control and direct them towards something, because once we have a goal in life, we have a target at which we can unleash our Libido.
This is crucial.
This power is incredibly strong, and it is within every single person. What lacks in most people is the authority to organize and channel this power towards something worthwhile.
What Is A Worthwhile Goal in Life?
When I listen to my Libido, truthfully, all the things it is asking for simmer around a very simple principle: to feel alive. I am driven to eat so as to feel strong. My body releases pleasure giving hormones when I exercise. My mood improves when I meditate and bring my awareness to the present. My Libido encourages me to pursue all actions that promote me feeling alive.
When I look deeper at what feeling alive involves I see that it always has in it a curious trait.
My Libido is driving me to feel power and to pursue actions which express my power, but this is not power in the political sense (although that doesn’t mean political power is excluded) it seems to be a feeling of conquest over adversity. When reality presents you with obstacles the ultimate feeling of being alive is the conquest of these obstacles.
Power is what is required to conquer adversity.
Within me there is a quality that wants to experience power. This quality is my Libido, and it is the motivating force which encourages me to challenge adversity. What I read as vulgar commands to fuck and eat is actually a voice with an attitude of always move forward.
The very fact I am here is because I have inherited a body which is the legacy of millions of successfully lived lives, all the way from the first fish to leave the ocean to the first people to wander out of Africa. I am made of power.
My obligation is to seek new challenges so as to craft a more powerful experience for the countless unborn who have yet to live.
I am obliged to burn off all the parts of me that weight me down to the past in order to free myself to evolve into something more powerful. I must burn away everything in me that is not capable of making this evolutionary leap using the most spiritual of blow torches:
I worked hard at burning away that within me that is weak so I could truly see what is a worthwhile goal in this life, because I needed a worthwhile goal, because without one my willpower wouldn’t have the strength to harness my Libido. So I gave up everything that I felt was not essential to this pursuit, until all that was left was myself and a question.
What must I do to evolve my experience of life?
I looked at all the adversity I could challenge in my world. I looked at all the problems of the past and wondered what is characteristic of the people who found their solutions?
I saw another consistent theme: Creation.
All adversity implies an obstacle, all life is weighted down by problems, but what always seemed to triumph was an innovators ability to create something new. Innovators were able to channel their Libido into creating a solution to a problem, even if it was the only time in their lives that they were truly in control of their drives.
Creation is the ultimate expression of life.
I looked at my life and then asked what problem would I tackle and overcome with the creative power of my Libido, controlled by my will, and I considered again tackling society. But as I pursued this my heart grounded me and explained that I was still going down the wrong path. I moved my focus away from society and turned to myself and realized I was the problem I needed to face.
I need to focus my creative efforts on myself.
The most worthwhile goal in Life, that is to say the most empowering goal in life, is to gain a triumph over yourself. To focus your Libido on one single purpose that grants you the most power in life:
A Statement of Intent
Through out my life I have been hampered by insult, suffering, and pain. This is a symptom common of all lives. I have lacked the necessary power to not get hurt by my schoolmasters words: “you will never amount to anything.” I have lacked the wit to come back against a well delivered insult. I have allowed this inability to make me bitter and spiteful towards these people who I perceived as my oppressors. I have exerted great energy in vengeance because of my unresolved anger towards the things that have caused me pain in this life.
Life crushes me under it’s thumb, just to make me suffer for my pride.
This suffering, this has motivated me to seek an experience, where I am powerful enough to roll with life’s punches. An experience where I have so much strength and so much toughness that pain washes off my soul like water. A lifestyle where my resentment for adversity gets transmuted into the acceptance of adversity, gifting me with that most mysterious of character traits – Grace.
I seek to conquer all the parts within me that feel pain, until all that is left within me is vitality.
I aim to achieve this goal through a phenomenon known as mastery, because for me the conquest of a skill is a conquest of oneself. The use of my skill will awaken in the hearts of other people the vitality that first moved me, and this economy of inspiration will be the basis of my altruism.
My love: It will be fuel for creators.
The Path To Mastery
I essentially want to express my power through art.
Therefore my empowerment is dependent upon my skill, meaning I must develop my skill. The way you develop you skill is by harnessing your creative power. By the very virtue of being alive you are an expression of life’s creative power the Libido. Whatever this creative power of life is focused upon gets energized.
To get in touch with this creative power I have to sacrifice everything that is a distraction and destroy all things within me that are obstacles to my power, through this I can allow the creative potency of my Libido to grow my skill. As I have pursued this path I have begun to see what is valuable in me compared to what is merely an obstacle.
I have learned to communicate with my Libido by paying attention to what experiences move me the most dramatically. When you do this you find that the most moving experiences are the ones which challenge you, and the growth happens when you try to overcome this challenge.
I observed which behaviors took me to the most empowering experience (for example: drug taking, learning, talking to strangers, meditating) I then observed which of these doorways lead to the most challenging experiences. I then decided a hierarchy of these portals, and these became my values.
An example from history about how someone could do this is the Buddha. The Buddha sought to experience the empowering feeling of ending suffering. When he achieved this experience, which he called Nirvana, he came back to earth and thought that by being compassionate one could overcome ones suffering. Compassion was the doorway to conquering suffering, and satisfied the instinct of not wanting pain.
The doorways that lead me to challenging experiences are:
- Commitment to mastering a craft.
- The active pursuit of stimulation and alternate states of consciousness, particularly stimulation with vitality like psychedelics, sex, or meditation as opposed to passive stimulation like television and alcohol.
- A focus on working with the body through disciplines such as martial arts, yoga, or dieting.
- The engagement in crowd feeling and Dionysian movements, like festivals, parties, ceremonies, and or cultural events.
- Presence in life combined with mastery of the mind, usually achieved through meditation, sheer experience, or philosophy.
Nietzsche said: “Any successful attempt to overcome obstacles and suffering achieves something genuinely creative.”
I feel we don’t focus enough on this part of the human experience, and instead trade our ability to conquer adversity with comfort. My intent is to pursue this assumption and test its merits. My encouragement is that you do the same.
The ultimate mindset shift is to abandon the weak notions like happiness and equality and pursue dangerous notions like empowerment and victory.
That is the real mindset of life.