I am angry.
My mind is fiery – and I am thinking about all the times I allowed people to disrespect me.
In this anger I become aware at how my mood effects my body.
My jaw is tense.
My shoulders hunched.
It weakens me – and causes my mind to crack – and when my mind cracks – things begin to crawl in.
Invading thoughts – like worms and insects into an open wound.
Suddenly – I find my mind battling with my doubts.
Am I good enough? Am I trying hard enough? Am I brave enough? Am I making a mistake?
The doubts begin to blend with my anger.
They are teaming up – to topple me.
Deep down in my stomach I begin to feel very upset – there is too much going on for me to handle.
Too much pull and push.
Too much stress and tension.
I am grinding my jaw.
I am telling myself to stop – but this only makes me more tense.
Resistance only fuels the fire.
I bounce back into a cycle of thoughts – and suddenly I am off somewhere else – and I am seeing a divide between my life vision and my life style.
I am feeling my doubts creep deeper.
Then it hits me.
Accept the feelings – don’t try resist them.
It is energy moving through my body – and I am blocking it with my mind.
I must take the anger into myself and use it.
I let go of trying to control my mood – I give the battle to the fury.
I use the only thing I can control – my focus.
I focus on my goals.
The anger pulls me and tries to bring me back into distraction – but I simply focus on my goals.
Then it happens.
The anger reveals itself as energy.
I hold my focus at my goals and my anger has nowhere else to go – it energizes my goals.
My anger when directed at my goals becomes motivation.
I grab a pen and write:
I cannot achieve my goals until I have mastered myself,
I cannot master myself until I control my focus,
Focus is the only weapon I have to exert my will.
Focus and Thoughts
This meditation revealed to me the power of focus – something that has been quite persistent as a theme in my life the past few years.
As I have been learning more about mentality and the mind I have repeatedly seen just how huge the idea of focus and attention is. To sum it up – it seems that at the most fundamental level – you aren’t really responsible for your thoughts – nor are you really capable of controlling them directly.
The only thing you really control is your focus.
If you want to change your thoughts you need to change your thinking patterns.
If you want to change your thinking patterns you simply focus on new ones until they become habitual.
The Power of Goal Setting
This intuitive way of reprogramming your mind using your focus is in truth really difficult – especially considering how damaged the modern attention span is.
Simple does not equal easy.
Despite this I have discovered that the most effective way to train your focus is to set yourself some long term goals.
When there is a long term goal – a grand vision – the mind quite naturally begins to align towards it.
When in times of stress you have an out where you can simply focus the energy of the stress onto the goal – giving the body a way of expressing the energy.
If there is no long term goal – the mind seems to really get beaten by hard times – as any slight feeling of desire or sorrow is enough to derail the whole individual into binge eating and nihilism.
I will back these claims up with possibly fictional statistics – people love that.
“New graduates of the Harvard MBA program in 1979 were asked: Have you set clear written goals for your future and made plans to accomplish them?
As the story goes, they found that:
- 84% had no specific goals
- 13% had goals, but not in writing
- 3% had clear written goals and plans to accomplish them
Ten years later, the same individuals were interviewed again.
The 13% who had set goals were earning, on average, two times as much as the 84% who had no goals.
Nice, but nothing compared to the 3% who had committed goals to paper.
This overachieving bunch was earning an average of ten times as much as the other two groups combined!”
This excerpt is taken from TheBulletproofMusician and is well worth a read.
Align The Mind
Existing is a confusing and often anxiety laden experience.
It is only this way because of our minds.
Our minds are so powerful that in one lifetime they could make thousands of people miserable or change the humanity for the better.
It’s all down to our focus.
Take the first step today and spend some time working with your focus.
Buddhism and Yoga are eastern disciplines I have explored – and the more I deconstructed them to their bare essentials – the more I saw that they were talking about the same thing.
Find your focus – then master it.
Which makes sense – real yoga is sometimes called that science of attention.
Try one of them.
Or if you want a more western choice – set yourself a goal for the day and try achieve it.
You can beat your mind.