I am dreaming that I am living a recurring dream.
In this recurring dream I am begin chased by an invincible demon which is in the form of a sort of cat-like monster which always out runs me, and every time I am killed I wake up only for the demon to appear again and begin to chase me.
Eventually I am hit by a wave of conviction.
Instead of allowing this demon to beat me, to frighten me, and wake me up – I let it bite me.
It storms towards me and hooks its tooth deep into my ear. I grab onto it as the pain wakes me up. I hold onto it and pull the demon out of the dream to face me.
The demon begins to up the intensity and drags harder into my ear until my mind feels only pain.
I feel like it is going to overwhelm me, but I resist.
I feel it’s mouth open up and prepare to eat me but I remain strong.
Then I beat it.
I beat it when I realize it has no power over me, and then I realize it was a fear demon – one of Hades. After it is overcome it gives me a visual message.
This message seems to be stretched into two paths – both leading to the mount of unavoidable Dis Pater.
On one path I could live a life afraid of pain and never truly live.
On the other path I could rise to life’s challenge and take pain for what it is – a monster in a dream.
Then I really wake up.
“The main themes here that I find are actually very philosophical. Firstly the dream within the dream idea I interpret as Samsara and the concept presented by Nietzsche as the eternal recurrence of the same.
The main tenet of these ideas is that time repeats itself infinitely, and that there is no “end”. We are trapped in this hell storm of suffering we call reality – which the eastern mind calls Samsara.
The next theme is pain – which seems to be the figure chasing me through each of these dreams. Buddhism posits that every lifetime in Samsara is always painful and that we are always trying to escape pain. The Buddha himself said that Nirvana was the condition of waking up out of the reoccurring nightmare that is Samsara and ending all pain.
Nietzsche was of a similar opinion.
He felt that it may be possible that reality is an infinite loop – and thus all our pain will be experienced by us again, and again – forever.
His response to this was that our only option is to confront and overcome pain – which is what I seem to do in the middle of my dream.
When I confront the demon and wrestle with it I realize that it is a demon of fear, and the two references of Dis Pater and Hades – the Roman and Greek Gods of Death and the Underworld – seem to be suggesting that my fear is actually a fear of death itself.
Then I am presented with the choice – unconsciously run away from fear, death, and pain for all eternity or face them attempt to overcome them – only to realize they are “dream monsters” that is figments of my imagination.
This realization is when I wake up truly from the cycle of dreams, drawing a profound allegory to Buddha’s awakening from suffering.